I am a bonified dreamer. I have all these little ideas in my head of things I want to do. Things from going skydiving to getting married. I always was getting in trouble at school for daydreaming too much. As years passed my dreams get more and more scarse....I do not know if its because I am getting older and less hopeful or coming to a sense of reality in my life. But I think deep down inside somewhere I still have dreams of being a concert pianist, getting married, going to Paris, etc. etc. etc.
One of my heartfealt dreams have always been to be a teacher. Not just a teacher but a teacher on the missionfield---oh and how I still dream that way today. My hearts desire is to someday go on the missionfield and teach---mainly teaching how to read. I also wanted to teach homemaking skills to villiage woman---like I said I have BIG dreams.....dreams that at times seems impossible to reach.....so I just keep on dreaming.
But, a "dream" or wish or hearts desire came true this past week at school. I have to admit I have been struggling alot at why I am a teacher....wondering if I am doing the right thing...wondering if I am a good teacher. I think its mainly the misbehavoir and discipline aspect that makes it hard for me. But, this past week a school parent told me something that her grand daughter said the night before---
"I wish I can read better so I can read the Bible and be a teacher just like Miss Page." What a blessing to my heart this was....especially after a very rough afternoon. This made all the hard situations with students {and parents} worthwhile in the end....I am doing what my heart has always desired to do. Teaching kids how to read for the sole purpose so they can read the Bible! Hearing and doing this makes my ministry and my job WORTH EVERYTHING in the end!!!!
I am going to keep dreaming and praying about going to the foreign missionfield someday, but for now Jacksonville, is my missionfield!!!! =D
