Its Friday. Friday means the end of a busy work week, late night, and also Five Minute Friday blogging. I enjoy linking up with The Gypsy Mama, and joining in the wonderful unedited five minutes of writing. I love letting my fingers dance across my keyboard wondering deep down inside of any of my words are making sense. So now that my pandora radio station is playing, I am propped up against a pillow under my covers I am now ready to write.
Real
What is real in my life?
What is my life?
I am a teacher. I am a student (yes my students teach me a lot to). What is my purpose in teaching my fifteen students (10 boys, 5 girls) every Monday-Friday. Do I show them my real self---I have to admit they have seen me in ways that not even some of my friends have seen me. Am I being a true and real example to them and though my life showing them Christ.
Feb 3, 2012
What Do I Know About My God?
This past week my roommate (and friend) Joanna and I have started to do a weekly Bible study together. We talked about what we should do, and looked through my shelf of books. I happened to have the book by Mardi Collier What Do I Know About My God" on my shelf. I have only read the first chapter and for some reason stopped reading it (bad habit of mine). This book so far has been a blessing and I cannot wait to really dig into it with Jo. This week we talked about Why do I NEED to Know God. You know as a older Christian I have to admit I take the reasons why I have to know God for granted. I grew up in a Christian home, went to church when the door were opened, started ministry in the church at a young age visiting with my dad on the bus ministry, etc. I will have to save a whole other post for this topic that the Lord also has been working on in my life. But the Lord really showed me that God really wants me to get to know Him. There were six reasons (or points) why I need to know God.
1. Because God Wants Us to Know Him.
2. We can't love someone we don't know.
3. Because if we don't know the truth about our God we will believe Satan's lies
4. Because we need to make sure we are telling others the truth about God.
5. Because God has all the answers to life
6. Because life is ALL ABOUT GOD not me.
I will expound a little more on this this weekend.....good night friends~
1. Because God Wants Us to Know Him.
2. We can't love someone we don't know.
3. Because if we don't know the truth about our God we will believe Satan's lies
4. Because we need to make sure we are telling others the truth about God.
5. Because God has all the answers to life
6. Because life is ALL ABOUT GOD not me.
I will expound a little more on this this weekend.....good night friends~
Jan 29, 2012
"Boy Crazy Girl"
Saw this today and thought it was great! It has taken me a long time to be content in my singleness and realize that God is all I need. May I be the kind of girl that HE wants me to be.
Jan 14, 2012
Long Week....Reflective Week....Hard Week...
What can I say...I am an honest person. I have to admit this has NOT been the easiest week to get through. For one, it dragged by like a turtle walking along the road. My students were...well lets just say I tried to be very patient to say the least. My body was here in Florida, but my heart and mind was in North Carolina (in case you were wondering if I were so dazed and out of it).
For one, I have come to realized I have had a very bad attitude....negative, pessimistic, and complaing attitude about EVERYTHING that came by way... school, my roommate, and things going on around me....After a Christmas break of a lot of complaing and grumpiness I came to realize the "happy go lucky Becca" had gone on her own vacation for months. The Lord has really been working on my heart to have a better attitude about things. Once the Lord really started working on my heart and I talked to Joanna, Amy, and some other people that hard shell started to peel away---and I have to admit its still peeling away slowly---VERY slowly. It is kinda funny...I was talking to a dear friend about this and she admitted that she had seen the same thing....and was worried about me and didn't want to say anything. Please pray as I try to be the joyful and thanful person I need to be.
This reflective part of the week has caused me to enjoy having a roommate again, trying not to have my own solitude and lock myself up in my room. The greatest thing I FINALLY talked to Joanna (my roommate) about it and everything took a wonderful turn. I was able to talk to her again like I wanted to....spend time with her...and be thankful for this wonderful, kind, patient, and loving roommate into my life. She has been a blessing to me--even today I sat down in her room as she was packing for a trp and told her about my dad....shared my heart with her---which is very hard to do since some circumstances came into my life----and life a TRUE friend and sister in Christ she prayed right there and then with me about my dad and that he will be okay and that I find the perfect peace and comfort while I am away.
The hardest part of my week was not being able to go home to NC to be with my daddy today for his surgery. Today especially was very emotional...on the outside I was smiling and pretending to be happy when on the outside I was crying and sad. It took me all afternoon to clean my classroom because I had so much on my mind.
I have also come to realize I have become spiritually stagnent. I feel that I am at a standstill in my life and I know the Lord is trying to pull me toward His Word. The "worldly" part of me wants to do my thing and make other things a priority when I should making God the priority in my life.
As I just wrote all the above I know one reason why I feel the way I do....grumpy, negative, and a bad attitude...I have been struggling spiritually....I am thankful though that no matter what God is always there to guide me. He is always there to be Patient. Even though I can be away from Him and not spend my quality time with Him--He is always there no matter what---Through every struggle and heartache--HE IS THERE.
I apologize for my ramblings and randomness....ALOT has been on my heart lately.
For one, I have come to realized I have had a very bad attitude....negative, pessimistic, and complaing attitude about EVERYTHING that came by way... school, my roommate, and things going on around me....After a Christmas break of a lot of complaing and grumpiness I came to realize the "happy go lucky Becca" had gone on her own vacation for months. The Lord has really been working on my heart to have a better attitude about things. Once the Lord really started working on my heart and I talked to Joanna, Amy, and some other people that hard shell started to peel away---and I have to admit its still peeling away slowly---VERY slowly. It is kinda funny...I was talking to a dear friend about this and she admitted that she had seen the same thing....and was worried about me and didn't want to say anything. Please pray as I try to be the joyful and thanful person I need to be.
This reflective part of the week has caused me to enjoy having a roommate again, trying not to have my own solitude and lock myself up in my room. The greatest thing I FINALLY talked to Joanna (my roommate) about it and everything took a wonderful turn. I was able to talk to her again like I wanted to....spend time with her...and be thankful for this wonderful, kind, patient, and loving roommate into my life. She has been a blessing to me--even today I sat down in her room as she was packing for a trp and told her about my dad....shared my heart with her---which is very hard to do since some circumstances came into my life----and life a TRUE friend and sister in Christ she prayed right there and then with me about my dad and that he will be okay and that I find the perfect peace and comfort while I am away.
The hardest part of my week was not being able to go home to NC to be with my daddy today for his surgery. Today especially was very emotional...on the outside I was smiling and pretending to be happy when on the outside I was crying and sad. It took me all afternoon to clean my classroom because I had so much on my mind.
I have also come to realize I have become spiritually stagnent. I feel that I am at a standstill in my life and I know the Lord is trying to pull me toward His Word. The "worldly" part of me wants to do my thing and make other things a priority when I should making God the priority in my life.
As I just wrote all the above I know one reason why I feel the way I do....grumpy, negative, and a bad attitude...I have been struggling spiritually....I am thankful though that no matter what God is always there to guide me. He is always there to be Patient. Even though I can be away from Him and not spend my quality time with Him--He is always there no matter what---Through every struggle and heartache--HE IS THERE.
I apologize for my ramblings and randomness....ALOT has been on my heart lately.
Jan 7, 2012
Five Minute Friday: Roar
It has been a LONG time since I have written with my five minute Friday friends. The weeks go by, I look at the topics and have writers block....even if I sit and think about what to write. But this topic this week is what is going inside my heart at the moment....a roaring.
Several years ago the most important man in my life, my dad, was diagnosed with sarcoma. As being a daddy's girl and my dad being my hero this was hard--of course I know it would be hard for any one to have any family or friend with cancer. I HATE cancer...I hate the word cancer.
My dad went into remission then several months later the cancer came back....they had to do a second surgery. The tumor came back as cancer again. There was roaring inside my soal to be mad at GOD and the doctors. I dd not know what to do except to pray....and really turn to God.
This fall dad had his port cath taken out---my mind thinks "yay!!! dad is done with cancer!!!"
THEN....December comes and he has an MRI and they found a suspiscious spot....guess what...yep you're right he has to have surgery again. My heart is sad, I don't know what to do...I have an intent to return to fill out for next year.....and then my heart feels like this cycle is beginning again....
I know in my heart that I shouldn't get ahead of myself---but being honest it is....I mean in my mind I am having a lot of roaring "what ifs." But there is also another roaring in my heart that it may not be really anything...that maybe dad will be okay....that maybe its a malignent tumor this time.....
I have to admit....I am afraid....and admit as well its really hard to trust God while I am hundreds of miles away and can't go and be with my dad....and my family. My dad is my world and the most important man in my life--and thats what all makes it even harder.
Please pray for my daddy....that if its the Lord's will its not cancer....that he will not have to undergo any more treatments....pray for my mom to be strong through all this I can't imagine how hard it is for her to be going though this....and pray for my sister and I as we go through this as well--
Several years ago the most important man in my life, my dad, was diagnosed with sarcoma. As being a daddy's girl and my dad being my hero this was hard--of course I know it would be hard for any one to have any family or friend with cancer. I HATE cancer...I hate the word cancer.
My dad went into remission then several months later the cancer came back....they had to do a second surgery. The tumor came back as cancer again. There was roaring inside my soal to be mad at GOD and the doctors. I dd not know what to do except to pray....and really turn to God.
This fall dad had his port cath taken out---my mind thinks "yay!!! dad is done with cancer!!!"
THEN....December comes and he has an MRI and they found a suspiscious spot....guess what...yep you're right he has to have surgery again. My heart is sad, I don't know what to do...I have an intent to return to fill out for next year.....and then my heart feels like this cycle is beginning again....
I know in my heart that I shouldn't get ahead of myself---but being honest it is....I mean in my mind I am having a lot of roaring "what ifs." But there is also another roaring in my heart that it may not be really anything...that maybe dad will be okay....that maybe its a malignent tumor this time.....
I have to admit....I am afraid....and admit as well its really hard to trust God while I am hundreds of miles away and can't go and be with my dad....and my family. My dad is my world and the most important man in my life--and thats what all makes it even harder.
Please pray for my daddy....that if its the Lord's will its not cancer....that he will not have to undergo any more treatments....pray for my mom to be strong through all this I can't imagine how hard it is for her to be going though this....and pray for my sister and I as we go through this as well--
Dec 29, 2011
2011 Reflections
12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, and too may hours to count the year of 2011 is winding down...
It is hard to believe that a new year is just around the corner. It seems like yesterday I was sitting on my couch watching the ball drop drinking my sparkling grape juice (which is amazing by the way) and getting teary eyed tha a new year was here. The year of 2011 sure did fly by. It is amazing to look back and see all the things the Lord did in my life and how I feel I have changed. I know I am not the same person I was last year.
The biggest (and the most exciting) thing this year was having my nose surgery. My mom has been wanting me to have surgery for a long time, and I just kept on saying I am not ready for it. In January, I went to the Dr. Trimas to see about having surgery done on my nose. He told me that he could do the surgery and that he would work with the insurance about covering it. In March, I recieved a letter from the insurance company and the first letter I received said "yes we will cover the surgery." The next day, I received another letter that said "no we will not cover the surgery." The dillio was that they would cover for the doctor to remove the neurofibroma and NOT to reconstruct it because it was "cosmetic." I was devastated, and yes I did cry in front of my entire class about it. I called the doctor and they told me what was going on. My main thoughts in my heart and mind was "Lord, do you really want me to have this surgery. Because I really did have peace about it and feel like this is something You want me to do so if so please work out the insurance issues or give me lots of money to pay for this." It took several week, but then I received a phone call from the doctor to schedule my surgery--INSURANCE was going to cover it!!!!! =) On June 10, 2011, I had surgery on my nose. I am so happy wth the results and so THANKFUL for my doctor and to the Lord for giving the doctor I needed to help me and for insurance covering the surgery.
My biggest goal of 2011 was to grow closer to the Lord. I do have to admit I had a hard time keeping that goal. I did deactivate my facebook account for a month. That was the best month of the year. I sure did have a lot of "time" for things--like Bible study. This year was also a spiritual roller coaster for me---being unsure of things, doubting, and learning to trust the Lord. One thing I see tat I need to work on is being more of a spirtual encouragement to my friends. The BIGGEST thing my walk with the Lord is not where it needs to be.....sadly I have been "too lazy" to do anything about it. My goal os 2012 is to work on my walk with the Lord and get back to wear I need to be. Lately, I have found myself discouraged and negative instead of my upbeat self. My goal in 2012 is to work on my walk with the Lord. I am realizing that it doesn't happen all by itself--it takes work just like friendship and marriage it takes work.
I also was trying to lose some weight. Between January and June I lost 10 pounds...oh how well I was doing. Then I stopped exercising, started eating junk food again, and just didn't care and those 10+ lbs came back. I have to admit my motto at the time was "you only live once enjoy those yummy foods." Just recently I have really realized that if I am not careful I can hurt my body by all that junk I put in it.
In August, I started my fifth year of teaching, and my second year teaching K5. I love my class and all my "little blessings." I do have to admit that there have been some challentes along the way....but the Lord has really seen me through some difficult times when i was wondering if I were doing the right thing.
I also spent my first Thanksgiving away from home. It was too expensive to fly to NC, so I stayed in Florida with some friends. I missed my family a lot, but am thankful for the Wimoths for adopting me for a day.
At the end of November I had the wonderful opportunity to see one of my best friends, Hannah. She and her husband Lech came to the states for Thanksgiving. I took a personal day off work, drove the 2 1/2 hours to Savannah and spent the day with her. It was a treasured and special time with my dear friend.
December 2011, was the busiest month of the year. I was helping with a slide show for my church's cantata, directing the speaking parts, making gifts for my school class and friends, parties, and church activites. I also came down with some 24 hour flu in the midst of being busy and trying to get things done. Everything worked out beautifully (when at the time I thought it wouldn't). My single's class went to Okeefenokee Swamp and we sang to some of the people there around a camp fire. It was a wonderful time of fellowhip together as Christian friends. I also drove the eight hours to see my family in NC. Along the way I stopped and saw the Davis family. While there for the evening I experience a jail hospital for the first time. Their church along with the Rock of Ages Prison Ministry went to the jail hospital to sing and preach. It was a scary experience, but also a blessed ministring to those in the prison hospital. After Christmas, I drove up to Roanoke, VA to see Amy and her husband Clay. It was a wonderful time spent wiht some great friends.
I am thankful for the year the Lord gave me and looking foward to what He is going to do in my life in the year 2012.
It is hard to believe that a new year is just around the corner. It seems like yesterday I was sitting on my couch watching the ball drop drinking my sparkling grape juice (which is amazing by the way) and getting teary eyed tha a new year was here. The year of 2011 sure did fly by. It is amazing to look back and see all the things the Lord did in my life and how I feel I have changed. I know I am not the same person I was last year.
The biggest (and the most exciting) thing this year was having my nose surgery. My mom has been wanting me to have surgery for a long time, and I just kept on saying I am not ready for it. In January, I went to the Dr. Trimas to see about having surgery done on my nose. He told me that he could do the surgery and that he would work with the insurance about covering it. In March, I recieved a letter from the insurance company and the first letter I received said "yes we will cover the surgery." The next day, I received another letter that said "no we will not cover the surgery." The dillio was that they would cover for the doctor to remove the neurofibroma and NOT to reconstruct it because it was "cosmetic." I was devastated, and yes I did cry in front of my entire class about it. I called the doctor and they told me what was going on. My main thoughts in my heart and mind was "Lord, do you really want me to have this surgery. Because I really did have peace about it and feel like this is something You want me to do so if so please work out the insurance issues or give me lots of money to pay for this." It took several week, but then I received a phone call from the doctor to schedule my surgery--INSURANCE was going to cover it!!!!! =) On June 10, 2011, I had surgery on my nose. I am so happy wth the results and so THANKFUL for my doctor and to the Lord for giving the doctor I needed to help me and for insurance covering the surgery.
My biggest goal of 2011 was to grow closer to the Lord. I do have to admit I had a hard time keeping that goal. I did deactivate my facebook account for a month. That was the best month of the year. I sure did have a lot of "time" for things--like Bible study. This year was also a spiritual roller coaster for me---being unsure of things, doubting, and learning to trust the Lord. One thing I see tat I need to work on is being more of a spirtual encouragement to my friends. The BIGGEST thing my walk with the Lord is not where it needs to be.....sadly I have been "too lazy" to do anything about it. My goal os 2012 is to work on my walk with the Lord and get back to wear I need to be. Lately, I have found myself discouraged and negative instead of my upbeat self. My goal in 2012 is to work on my walk with the Lord. I am realizing that it doesn't happen all by itself--it takes work just like friendship and marriage it takes work.
I also was trying to lose some weight. Between January and June I lost 10 pounds...oh how well I was doing. Then I stopped exercising, started eating junk food again, and just didn't care and those 10+ lbs came back. I have to admit my motto at the time was "you only live once enjoy those yummy foods." Just recently I have really realized that if I am not careful I can hurt my body by all that junk I put in it.
In August, I started my fifth year of teaching, and my second year teaching K5. I love my class and all my "little blessings." I do have to admit that there have been some challentes along the way....but the Lord has really seen me through some difficult times when i was wondering if I were doing the right thing.
I also spent my first Thanksgiving away from home. It was too expensive to fly to NC, so I stayed in Florida with some friends. I missed my family a lot, but am thankful for the Wimoths for adopting me for a day.
At the end of November I had the wonderful opportunity to see one of my best friends, Hannah. She and her husband Lech came to the states for Thanksgiving. I took a personal day off work, drove the 2 1/2 hours to Savannah and spent the day with her. It was a treasured and special time with my dear friend.
December 2011, was the busiest month of the year. I was helping with a slide show for my church's cantata, directing the speaking parts, making gifts for my school class and friends, parties, and church activites. I also came down with some 24 hour flu in the midst of being busy and trying to get things done. Everything worked out beautifully (when at the time I thought it wouldn't). My single's class went to Okeefenokee Swamp and we sang to some of the people there around a camp fire. It was a wonderful time of fellowhip together as Christian friends. I also drove the eight hours to see my family in NC. Along the way I stopped and saw the Davis family. While there for the evening I experience a jail hospital for the first time. Their church along with the Rock of Ages Prison Ministry went to the jail hospital to sing and preach. It was a scary experience, but also a blessed ministring to those in the prison hospital. After Christmas, I drove up to Roanoke, VA to see Amy and her husband Clay. It was a wonderful time spent wiht some great friends.
I am thankful for the year the Lord gave me and looking foward to what He is going to do in my life in the year 2012.
Dec 23, 2011
Its Late...
It is late.....its 4:00 am and I am still awake....mostly because I fell asleept after dinner and slept till almost 10:00.
It is almost two weeks before the new year and I am already tryin to set some new year goals....the first one is to work on my spiritual life (more about that to come later). The second is to lose weight. Last year I lost 10 pounds and how great I felt and happy I was. It took six months to do it, but I did it. Then school started. I became stressed over some issues. I ate. I gained 10+ pounds back. I got to the point I didn't care anymore. If I was going to be overweight and fat so be it. I even told someone I didn't care--life it short I was going to eat what I want and do what I want and if I get fat and gain weight so be it.
Then I tried on winter clothes...nothing fit...I tried on some newer dresses I bought...I looked fat....I look in the mirror and look horrible...I did this to myself AGAIN.
So this coming 2012 I am going to be a "biggest loser" I am going to exercise. I am going to eat right. I am going to lose that weight and get back down to what I was in high-school--135lbs istead of a whopping 170 lbs.
Its my choice I can eat and sit around or I can eat better and exercise and care about my health....I want to take the route of caring about my health =) I am thinking of startin a little online diary thing if I can find one to help me keep track of losing the weight and getting healthy.
It is almost two weeks before the new year and I am already tryin to set some new year goals....the first one is to work on my spiritual life (more about that to come later). The second is to lose weight. Last year I lost 10 pounds and how great I felt and happy I was. It took six months to do it, but I did it. Then school started. I became stressed over some issues. I ate. I gained 10+ pounds back. I got to the point I didn't care anymore. If I was going to be overweight and fat so be it. I even told someone I didn't care--life it short I was going to eat what I want and do what I want and if I get fat and gain weight so be it.
Then I tried on winter clothes...nothing fit...I tried on some newer dresses I bought...I looked fat....I look in the mirror and look horrible...I did this to myself AGAIN.
So this coming 2012 I am going to be a "biggest loser" I am going to exercise. I am going to eat right. I am going to lose that weight and get back down to what I was in high-school--135lbs istead of a whopping 170 lbs.
Its my choice I can eat and sit around or I can eat better and exercise and care about my health....I want to take the route of caring about my health =) I am thinking of startin a little online diary thing if I can find one to help me keep track of losing the weight and getting healthy.
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