I am at a crossroads in my life…A road that I can turn and be discontent in my singleness or a road I can take and be content in being single. I used to ling and pine for someone special in my life. I used to think that I HAD to have a boyfriend or a husband to complete me and make me happy. The world tells me I will only be happy if I have a partner, a boyfriend, or a husband to make me happy. The world lies….This is the world's view on relationships.
I do not have to have a husband or a boyfriend to complete me. I don’t have to have a husband or a boyfriend to make me happy. If I fall for the first guy that smiles at me…if I decide to give the most precious thing {my heart} away to the first guy that asks me out I am desperate. I have tried giving my heart away and having feeling for someone but those feelings were false and with emotions that I HAVE to have someone to make me happy were lying to me---I was lying to myself
Through the past few years I have fallen hard for several guys. Guys that were good Christian men that I thought would be perfect for ME. But that was my fleshly human mind that was yet again DESPRATE and wanted to SOMEONE to love me.
This past year the Lord has really been working in my life not to focus on every cute guy that walks into the room and think “Oh he’s the one.” Okay first of all that very immature of me….kinda like jr/sr high school type of thing to do. Instead, the Lord has helped me focus on them as a brother in Christ..as a friend…or as an acquaintance Instead of making guys the focus of my life and being determined to have that one guy fall for me…I have decided to turn things around.
I have decided to focus on Christ and making Him the Prince of my life. I need to read that love letter MY PRINCE wrote me. I need to take those words and truths He has given me and set them in my heart and fall even more in LOVE with GOD instead of earthly men that can hinder my focus.
I want to make Christ the Prince of my life---I want Him to script my love story—and have “HIM satisfy the longings of my heart” (Ludy, Authentic Beauty, back cover)
Currently I am reading a book called Authentic Beauty by Leslie Ludy. Her main thrust in this book is making Christ the Prince of YOUR life and being the Princess HE wants me to be. This is where my focus comes from—also along with God’s Word.
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