Just a post before bed time...

Well, I was headed to bed-it seems the times I am about to climb under my covers and go off to the wonderful land of sugar plum fairies, my dream wedding, meeting prince charming, eating cotton candy, or swimming in a large much of delicious coffee is when my mind starts racing! There has been a lot going on over the past couple of years, a battle on the inside that I feel black and blue over, a battle I am tired of fighting, and think I have come to the point I am putting the boxing gloves away and giving it to the Lord. I have to say giving things to the Lord is something that is hard for me to do...sometimes I think I can win this on my own, but in the end I can't.

Over the past several years I have been praying and seeking the Lord's guidance whether or not to move from the area I am in now or to quit teaching all together. I have to admit...I am not confident when it comes to teaching, sometimes I feel that there is someone better and more adequate to do my job. But then I look into the eyes of the students I stand in front of every single day, from 8-3 five times a week, their sweet words, their sweet and thoughtful expressions of love--from hugs, pictures, flowers (more like weeds), songs, and even using grass as confetti while singing a "we love you" song to the tune of Happy Birthday. All these expressions of love helps me know I am where the Lord wants me to be. The times a student comes to me and simple says "I love you" means the world to me. I look at my life and think that there isn't anything else I want to do except teaching my students about God, reading, math, science, and social studies. Telling them stories about me when I was a kid, reading books to them, and laughing with them on the playground in the classroom brings me more joy than looking up in the night sky and seeing the starts, or drinking coffee, or eating chocolate. I am very thankful the Lord has allowed me to be a teacher--this is His Will for my life-and this is what I am meant to do. Someday, I still hope some dashing young man on a white horse (well in my dreams at least) will waltz into my life and sweep me off my feet. But, for now I am going to be a single, carefree, Christian young lady who loves teaching and loves being around "her kids." 

GOOD NIGHT AND GOD BLESS!